The Gourmellows

These past few weeks have been I would say, different. Different in a way I have not been in a while. I missed many things in these past six years, life just slipt away. Busy, raising a family and trying to find my place in this world. I lost focus on what my life was all about, at least what I think it should be.
I forgot to remember that life its a journey and not a destination, like everything else. I focused on things that are not important or not focus at all. I lost precious time, I will never get that back, but I can learn from it.
Losing yourself in the clutter of this world is easy, especially western civilizations.
I need to go back to the basics, I crave simplicity right now, like a healing path, to restore the unbalanced way of life I have followed for so long. I am not willing to do that anymore. I want to live the way I am supposed to, or feel to. We have no excuses to waste our lives if we dont want to. And I dont want anymore. I want my life connected to something higher, something that is worthwhile the efforts, connected to the source.
I want to be aware, I dont want to be blind anymore. I want to feel the nature around me again.
I have forgot how to listen, to see, to smell, to breath in.
Those true colors around me, sometimes it felt like I was living through someone else's eyes, scary.
I want to slow down and take the time to enjoy the fly of a butterfly or the laugh of my children, give them all my attention, and love, without feeling rushed, no pressure, I want them to feel that as well. I want to learn how to sit in stilness, somehow so hard for me to accomplish, learn how to listen to my own heart beat and syncronize my life around that.
I think every human being is reborn every few years.
I am new here today, I am still learning.