The Gourmellows

I am here laying on the grass, enjoying a gorgeous day in the sun. I am warm and comfortable, I feel one with the nature surrounding me. It's been awhile since I haven't done that, makes me feel whole and at peace with everything around me. The feelings I have hidden for so long are finally back, it isn't always a good thing, as sometimes they make me vulnerable and very sensitive "but I'd rather feel pain that nothing at all".
Living accordingly to ones believes isn't always feasible or easy, but it sure makes me feel like I belong, like I care and I am not here just for the ride, I am making it happen.
The joy I have finally found inside is of the type that fills the Universe, is the one that tells me this is who I am, and I am liking it, a lot.